Things are seriously just not going well and they haven't been for the past two years. I keep looking back at so many of the mistakes I've done and there are so many things I want to change from the past. I know, I know, it's totally unhealthy and just wrong to have regrets over little things in the past but from time to time I just can't help it. So many things I didn't do could have helped me in school and my social life right now. I just hate how I was sometimes when I was a kid.

It's like I'm repeating my childhood mistakes over and over. School is my main concern. I have to get my grades up or else I won't be allowed to take classes next year, I'm completely broke except I'm waiting for loans to come in but seriously, who gets excited about those? They haunt you for the rest of your life until they are paid off. Family....*sighs* family problems just seem to grow bigger and bigger with more drama lately WTF?! And my social life isn't really doing so hot either. God things are just so bad these days. I want to thank ~Arechan for helping me out for the past couple years. No matter how many times I've cried and complained to her about this huge mess she always listened to me and helped me get through it all bit by bit.

*SOBS* EVERYTHING IS JUST RUINED!!! *sighs* I pray that this school year will be better. I'll admit, I'm not at my dream school. I never really had one. I'm only there because their degree in Business is top notch around my town. But I have grown to like it day by day. I feel like an actual university student when I walk from one building to the next. I plan to join a couple clubs there too so maybe that can finally be a nice thing on my agenda someday. I dunno....it's just...really hard and I hate it. Wish me luck and I seriously hope the rest of you aren't having a shitty half-year like I am.